I don't really want to get too into it, but it finally happened - I got kicked out of a cherished social group for, essentially, being too loud as a Jew. As far as I understand, anyway - I wasn't given much information, and what little information I have been given is secondary. The (goyiche) people involved say it wasnt motivated by antisemitism, but I've consulted with Jews, and unfortunately, the consensus is baby has suffered his first real antisemitism. It's especially hard to believe otherwise when the final straw was me discussing Jewish history - specifically, the mizrahim expulsion from muslim-dominated countries in Western Asia. This is a documented thing that happened. A goy in the server tried to correct me using the wikipedia page, which said almost word for word, what I said, in its first paragraph. I don't think he actually read the article. I think he did what I admittedly sometimes do, which is skim an article until I find the point I want to make without reading the rest of it. I admit, I didn't even fully read the article this time since I was so upset that a so-called Jewish Respecter would try to nitpick a prospective Jew on Jewish history. As if that's not part of the fucking culture I've been working to join for years now.
I'm an adult, so I won't name names, but I am terribly heartbroken. And a bit defensive, honestly - I don't know when I'll trust unvetted goyim like that again. If I ever did speak about contentious topics, it's because I felt safe, and I trusted that if anyone had issues with me, they could just tell me. I was wrong. I might have to be a bit quieter about my conversion and other various Jewish things... Oh, well. I had to learn this lesson sometime. I also want to be loudly Jewish, to scare away the antisemites that can't handle truths like "no matter where you come from, you should be treated like a human being, and not like an extension of your corrupt government. YES! Even Israelis!!" Maybe even especially, given the Israeli and Palestinian joint turnout at various protests against the war and Netenyahu's terrorist policies. But I digress.
For my own sanity, I'm considering this a necessary part of my conversion. It feels like every Jew I know has been kicked out of at least one social group these last few years for being Too Jewish. Even the most diehard, anti-Netenyahu, anti-war Jews I know. I'm texting one as I write this... a local leftist group expelled her completely because of comments about IDF she made, ONCE, even though she got kicked out of our synagogue for "antisemitic statements" about Israel. I wonder if she just casually mentioned some friends from Israel are serving.
I, for one, am vocally anti-war and have donated hundreds of my Tzedakah dollars to peace efforts and emergency aid to Gaza, but that doesn't matter, because I have secret alliegances with Israel, or whatever. It's insulting that my so-called "friends" apparently hold so little respect for me that they can't give me the benefit of the doubt, or even have a fucking conversation with me about it. It's validating, in a way. As much as it hurts, it also feels kind of good? Step by step, I am enmeshing myself with the Tribe. Their experiences are mine and I'm finding unity in my community through this heartbreak. At the end of it all, at least I have other Jews to lean on. Whatever happens, I have my wife, my closest goyiche friends (chill), and Jews.